Your wounded daughter stands before you with tears of hurt and a heart that has been ripped apart by my husband. When I needed encouragement he focused on all my negative of the past and made me feel totally worthless and blamed me for his past unhappiness. He said he had hated me and wanted to cut his throat and have me be the first to see him.
Oh Father God how can he be so cruel. I confess I have not always been the most desirable wife, but his hatred seems so unfair. I tried to be a good wife even though I wa unloved. I tried to be loving when I felt worthless and undesirable. I find no comfort in his words that he loves me now, but I need to face the past in truth. I need to know the real truth from you God, because you have always known my heart, and you are fair and honest even in love. I need to understand the past and where I was wrong and if you really had desired us together. I need to put the past in proper prospective so I can help others. Take away my hurt and bitterness.
Thank you Daddy for holding me tight in your arms and for your everlasting love regardless of my sins and disobedience. I love you Holy Father with my whole heart! Mauri